The new Lane of Lyf...

Today...after crossing those grey walls of school,twelve years of endless struggle seems just a foolish dream!! Fighting with friends over petty issues,blaming others for stealing a pen,playing hide-n-seek n getting caught in a locked room by our old librarian,admiring girls during lunch-hour,persuing teachers to give free-periods,bunking classes for carnival,singing to the beats of a friend's desk(!),trying hard to meet up the expectations of being a house-captain...n what not!!...taking solemn resolutions before each terminals to "study throughout the year"next time.....(next time being the post-script!).... n breaking them the day the exams ended!!!...But finally came the much dreaded of them all..-ISC!!But somehow a decent marksheet arrived a month later...
And now...its a new struggle to meet up the expectations of people who matter...You realize that getting admitted to a reputed college is not an excuse-slip for freedom! It shows you the way to the graveyard,where those colourful memories of twelve years lay burried...Where people smile at you,chat with you,are ready to treat you with fags n booze,and "claim" to be your true-friends..."claim" being the word..!! There's always a fight for recognition...some trying to be a casanova,some trying to be leaders of college-politics,some trying to impress proffessors with 'oil-coated' crap!!... But the fact remains that evryone looks tired of faking it...Their smiling faces look as fake as the yellow and pink paint on the imposing pillars of the gothic college building...
...Even equations with old friends change..people whom you claimed to have known the best,now appear unknown to you..As if distance has really won over the strength of your bond!Your loneliness seem to be the ultimate reality...And as someone says,you have to make "efforts" to speak,"efforts" to smile,"efforts" to keep old and new bonds intact...

Three others apart from her,
It would rain one of them had a fear...
Waiting by the crossroads,of joy and sorrow
He saw the sky drop a tear...

They ran to find a shade,
Black umbrellas clouded each face...
She did'nt care 2 hide herself.
She gave the rains a warm embrace...

Her flying locks surrendered.
Her eyes refused to blink...
Drops of rain,kissed her lips,
Jealousy blurred his eyes like a stain of ink...

He wanted to taste the rain with her,
Clasping her hand,holding her tight...
But his lips remained dry,and lashes-wet,
He was in love,they were right...

The rain stopped,
But the drops did not;
The sky became clear,
But the heart did not;

She waved him bye,and took the path ahead,
The sky borrowed the hue of his bleeding heart...
He was left alone in the crowded crossroads,
He kept waiting for a new start...

WHY ?...........

Why did you say,that you care,when you knew you would break my heart?
Why did you come so close,when you knew you would go so far away?
Why did you say,that you liked seeing me smile,when you knew you would make me cry?
Why did you let me clasp your fingers,when you knew you would leave my hands?
Why did you want to know my sorrows,when you knew you would give sorrows everytime?
Why did you promise to walk by my side,when you knew you would leave me behind?
Why did you keep me awake every night,when you knew you would take away my sleep?
Why did you make me dream once more,when you knew you would break them again?
Why did you ask me to help you breathe,when you knew you would take away my life?
Why did you whisper in my ears,when you knew you would talk to me never?
Why did you ask me to be myself,when you knew you would change me forever?
Why did you leave these questions unanswered,when you knew you won't have any answer ever?...